Gemlog Archive 

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4/18/26

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Still having this annoying aching feeling, maybe it's depression, or fatigue, I don't know tbh. It's been bothering me for a little while again too.

Maybe a cup of tea will make me feel more better, alongside doing so house chores before my mom comes home.

Maybe I'll continue making the hands, feet and head fins for my Lafufu doll custom too, mainly using dark pink fabric and will hopefully use a sponge to color the cut out parts using dark purple acrylic paint and let them dry over time. I already made the tailfin, I jsut need to make the rest of the parts.

4/16/26

I'm becoming apathetic with stupid gender rules and this useless gender game that people are forced to live in.

It's also why I'm happy with being an androgynous Woman, and only goes by she/they.

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And maybe one day when I move to Finland, I won't have to speak english as much in the future, at least until I'm really fluent with speaking Finnish and maybe Estonian for Finland.

Finland might have graphic art/design jobs but I'll have to wait and see tbh, or ever freelance artist jobs too.

On a brighter note, I have many websites to help me learn languages I want to become fluent with: German, Russian, Japanese, Finnish, and Estonian.

Loving Macrons 4/15/26

Honestly, I'm still liking Macrons, my favorite flavor would be the lemon flavor and other fruit flavored ones the most.

I hope to also post more gemlogs in the future too, and also taking

my time into writing as much as I can about a random topic.

I also hope to go to the Dentist too, because I need my teeth's cavities filled, so in the future, I'm staying far far away from overly solid and hard candies, and I'll just suck on them only, or just avoid them entirely.

It's mainly my characters, both my general

character collection, art gallery and also for my Geography Girls as well too, hopefully I'll make an alt name too.

Geographhy girls are basically a collection of characters that are personifications of different

countries, basically a female only version of Hetalia I guess.

I will take my time adding the images too, and at least adding a little soft fade

effect for the outer parts of the drawings too.

Thanks for reading.

(I also hope to give this site a favicon and edit this theme somehow too.)

There's a bad habit to where I don't always add a website I like in my local file for keeping fanlisting websites I want to save, 

or keeping websites I want to bookmark in the meantime, and hopefully I'll add a section in that file for general blogging and tech themed stuff too, alongside my bookmarks collection for my personal website.

And yeah, hopefully I'll mentally keep this in mind in the future for any

 website I like and keep it in my local file on my laptop and on my Nexcloud file, and then adding them to my firefox bookmarks.

I've been thinking about doing this for a little while, and I'll just use my Windows 7 ThinkPad tablet to host the node

I might also check out on trying out reticulum as well, I just need to read into how to do so on their website.

I might as well make mirrors of sites I want to keep on other parts of the internet and not only staying on the https net, y'know?

I already made an offline mirror of my personal website using Winhttrack, so I might as well make self-hosting mirrors using my X61 ThinkPad Tablet.

2/18/26 Far Future Plans to moving to Finland + Etc

I know this is a big decision for me to make in the far future, I do say far future
because I don't know when this'll happen at some point.
But yeah, I hope that when I move to a less chaotic place in the world, I'm picking Finland.
I was thinking of picking Portugal, but I'll still think about it.
But yeah. That's pretty much it really, I'll look into Finland, it's culture, language and others over
time too. I'll still make my own artwork and other stuff, and I do admit to imaging myself in a less
stressful mental envirement as well too, so yeah.
On another nicer note, I'll be releasing my upcoming single as well, at least when I finish the cover image for it.
I'll post the image here when I'm done with it and posting the song too.
Thanks for reading.

2/8/26 Why I love Bigelow/other Tea + Etc

The reason I like this brand of tea, is mainly because I love Tea, probably since 4 to 5 years ago.

1/29/26 The Gemini capsule mirror is online + Etc

12-10-25 Slowly becoming a jesus-only worhsipper + Etc

11-17-25 Why I believe that human society should become gender non-conforming/Androgynous with gender in general
The idea of human society of general androgyny

The reason I believe that gender should be done away with, is mainly because I believe that Gender norms, stereotypes and expectations
from human society has never made things better at all, alongside them being frankly hurtful in general.
I also feel like trans stuff also just pushes really outdated gender stereotypes as well, and frankly, I rather be an Androgynous woman tbqh.
Gender norms are outdated, regressive and screws over everyone, making people fixate on labels they shouldn't even have to worry about
in the first place, it's just a mess really.
That's why I will propose an idea that all of human society just throws away any restrictive gender strerotypes, gender norms, and gender expectations too, since they all suck in general. 
I really hope human society only seperates people by sex characteristics, not gender, since gender is just what a society molds a person to be since history.
The world is already deeply upsetting and confusing enough as it is, the one thing that should be let go are horrible, outdated and tight gender roles, stereotypes
and gender expectations, at least expectations that are way too high to the point of being impossible... 
It's why I rather be against conforming to gender stereotypes and stupid gender rituals that won't make me feel any better.

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Off topic tangent
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I also find it pretty annoying that basically anything can become an ideology now, including identity stuff, I personally believe that identity politics have basically
done nothing but muddle things even more in the US, at least gender politics stuff.
I still believe that this useless culture war stuff is all just pointless, and is purposely created as a distraction of president 45 actively screw over the country and everyone in it, and it's why I rather read in on politics sometimes, and no, using useless political buzzwords to "dunk on" your political opponents won't do anything either, I truly hope all political buzzwords that terminally online people use to seriously become obsolete one day, because seriously, the words transphobia and homophobia are only used in the context of not liking someone and nothing else.
I also find it pretty insufferable how some political activists (mostly the ones that use Twitter too much imho) thinks it's ok to confront and badger people
who don't 100% agree with them on their beliefs and causes they support, alongside some online activists thinking it's acceptable to vandalize a telsa car, thinking
that they're "sticking it to the billionaires" when in reality, it's regular everyday people who might want to get a tesla/Cybertruck.
I still believe those cars are death traps, but yeah. Don't vandalize cars and building to be petty, since it'll only make activists look like
busy body cry-bullies, but whatever. I'll just live my life as always.
And don't forget this, I deeply hate both political extremes as well, because they say the most demented stuff possible and people still listen
to these jerks that only speak for a fringe few nutter butters.
I also deeply despise when both political extremes also fearmonger about many different things, again, the world is already crappy enough, humanity should frankly
shun political fearmongering in general, since it's only made to scare people into paranoid insanity and nothing more.

11-16-25 Why I love Maximalist design and art

The reason I love Maximalist design and art is because of how may things there are on screen,
and I like looking at an image that has so many different colors, shapes, forms, lines and etc, alongside a ton of detail.
Obviously, I can't practice Maximalism on the Gemini network, and I technically can try Maximalism with only HTML code on a Hyphanet flog/sharesite and stuff.
I don't know what is it that attracted me to Maximalism in the first place, ok it's mainly because
I think Minimalism is "too bland" which is funny coming from me, since
I enjoy gaudy colored clothing with strange fabrics, like a pink and black dress with bohemian patterns and some checkerboard patterns on the bottom.
And that's all really for this gemlog really.